More and more

The longer I look into it...

The more reasons I find to hurt him...

The more I think of it...

The more reasons I find to make him bleed...

The more I know of it...

The more reasons I find to break his hands off...

But I won't resolve my problems with violence..

oh no no no....

I'm not the uncivilized FREAK or as you say ape man like him....

I have have my ways to crumble a person like ruins without the power of a fist...

Just you wait...

I have my ways...

Sudden Addiction

( This is gonna be a random post )

Lately I have been having these sudden addiction to bands

"My Chemical Romance

AC/DC

Tokio Hotel

Slipknot

Blink 182

Fall Out Boys

Linkin Park"

Don't know why... but the solo's from their songs...

Is BLOODY AWESOME !

Here are a few examples:

Dead! - My Chemical Romance

M&M's - Blink 182.

Give them a listen. ^^

Good news

To all those people who really...

REALLY hates me...

I have good news...

I'm leaving the country...

I might be only... 80%

Going to Singapore to study...

To those that don't want me to go...

I'm sorry... I'll miss you all...

but this choice is for my future sake...

This Song Describes How I feel. (Addicted by Simple Plan)

I heard you're doing OK
But I want you to know
I'm addict
I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy but you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
I'm still a dick
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you

Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker

Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker

Weirdness..

Lately I have been having these sudden feeling.

Like I was doing some thin half way then I just lost all interest in doing anything.

My head starts spinning.

I feel like puking...

Confused.

Lost.

It's so weird.

Am I going mad ?

Crazy ?

Dunno la...

Too confuse to ask myself more question.

"You"

(A song by Wilson Ho "You")

Verse 1:

This song I wrote for you

All the verse I speak the truth.

All I know is that I love you.

Sometimes I feel down in the blues

I look ahead to really know the truth.

Words do not speak what's going through

Pre-Chorus:

For I love you

And only you.

Chorus:

You are the one makes me smile.

You are the one that makes me go wild.

Tired of trying

Enough lying

I really can't take it anymore.

Cause it's only you that I care for.

Verse 2 :

Every time I think of you

Every minute I think I miss you.

This is all and only true.

Come on girl you know why.

That I look into your eyes.

And I'm tired of your lies

(Pre-Chorus)

(Chorus)

Bridge:

I've tried.

To forget you

I've tried

To let go of you

It ain't so easy but I know why.

I just can't forget you.

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

It ain't easy but I think I know why.

I just can't forget you.

You.

You....

Short Poem

Damn!

(sigh)

I'm gonna write a short poem.. of how I feel right now (1.58 A.M 9/02/2010)

"Every little minute I think of you.

Every little minute I miss you.

The times we had.

Is A memory that I'll never forget.

I'm not the Devil either.

I'm just a normal good deed doer.

Every night ain't light.

For if it's for you.

It's worth A fight.

You are the sun and moon.

I just hope to see you real soon.

Living without you is hard.

It's like playing with a dead deck of cards.

Love is never fair.

But I'm willing to dare.

Nothing is impossible

Forgetting you is impossible.

Loving you is easy.

But sometimes it ain't an ecstasy.

I love you to the core.

For my heart will soar.

Eagles Wings will fly.

Without you I will die.

These words are my promise to you.

That I'll always love you and miss you.

I only speak the truth.

And only the truth. "

Once More It's Not Fair.

Let Me put it in a story as I has before.

"There was once a girl, she was driving on the highway back to her hometown.

She saw a little brown cute puppy... and decided to stop and help the puppy...

What she didn't know was the brown puppy already had a home but ran away from it...

Then she held on to the puppy... ad the hours passed.. She and the brown puppy bonded..

Then when she was about to reach her hometown..

She saw a cuter and sweeter white puppy..

It was hard for her to choose..

But she decided to take along the brown puppy..

What she didn't know that white puppy has been starving for 3 days withut shelter and without a home a.. and was hoping for hope..

But she ignored and went on and let the white puppy...

The brown puppy knew the white puppy and in the brown puppy's heart he said : " Haha! She chose me! Not You! Hahahahaha! "

The Brown puppy had a home.. but decided to ran away and look for a new one..

The white puppy has no home all his life... and was hoping for one.. but he was ignored...

The Blame was not to put on the girl going back... but the brown puppy...

He could have done something... but no...

The white puppy eventually died on that day... "

Now ain't that sad...

Songs Describe How I Feel Right Now

You know..

I really dunno what else to say..

I'm lost of words...

My life ain't getting better... but instead it's the opposite..

So I'll use a few songs to describe how I feel right now...

So... Just go listen to..

Addicted - Simple Plan

Worst Day Ever - Simple Plan

I'd Do Anything - Simple Plan

Meet You There - Simple Plan

God Must Hate Me - Simple Plan

Welcome to My Life - Simple Plan

Crazy Love- Michael Buble

Georgia in My Mind- Michael Buble

All Of Me - Michael Buble

Hold On - Michael Buble

You're Nobody Till Somebody Loves You - Michael Buble

At This Moment - Michael Buble

Tonight - FM Static

Man Whatcha Doin - FM Static

Take Me As I Am - FM Static

Hey Now - Fm Static

Definitely Maybe - FM Static

Lie To Me - Daniel Powter

Bad Day - Daniel Powter

Given Up - Linkin Park

Leave Out all The rest - Linkin Park

Shadow Of the Day - Linkin Park

No More Sorrows - Linkin Park

Details In The Fabric - Jason Mraz

I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

Live High - Jason Mraz

Butterfly - Jason Mraz

Apologize - One Republic

Highlighted ones are the ones that expxlains me the most...

Or The tune of music..

Give it A listen...

We have a lot on common

Meeting up with her...

Was awesome..

We had a lot of things in common in fact..

But the fact is she is 17 and I'm 16...

But I look forward to this friendship...

We had a great chat on the phone and on msn...

Then she was apparently with a guy I knew...

The guy was a jerk.. Lied to her... that he had never kissed... etc.

I didn't wanna see her go down the drain (so to speak..)

So I told her... his history... and to always be cautious...

I'm not as you say, Busy body...

I just wanna warn a friend from dropping into a ditch

( Metaphore )

So eventually they broke up...

She is sad..

But I'll hope she'll get better soon...

But sometimes... A sacrifice is needed in order for a perfect life...

Got it memorized ?

Fed up

You know what...

I'm fed up with putting up with this guy..

For 3 years... 3 YEARS!

I have put up with this arrogant,

selfish,

Jerk!

Well fed up of it... So screw it,

A lesson must be thought to him...

He doesn't appreciate what a good friend has to offer...

Simply put the blame some more..

Haiz... Fed up la..

Suan la.. so be it...