A Sudden feeling..

My heart had a sudden heart ache..

I felt sad..

Stressed...

Angry...

All negative emotions start coming..

I just felt like dying on the spot..

And the only word in my mind was "Why?"

It was pissing me off..

I feel like crying but... I cant...

haiz...

I have no reason to be that way that day.. just feel so sad...

My heart ached! It felt heavy... Painful...

My head was spinning... I was confused..

It just felt that way...

Eventually I started crying..

I just cried myself to sleep..

Felt so depress...

(This all happened on the 30/01/10 , 11.30 pm)

4 Arif was and is 1 Arif

Well people.. it's a new year... These Are me mates <-

So was expecting new class apparently I was back where I started...

hahaha..

My form 4 class was also my form 1 class..

Well literally...

I've been with the same people for almost 3 years...

1 Arif

2 Arif

3 Arif...

(surprisingly)

4 ARIF AGAIN! hahahah

From right to left...

(Amirrul Rasyid, CY, Ariel [so rajin...] Nafaul , Me?! ) xD

Leave it unto God

An advice from a friend said...

"It doesn't always have to be unfair...

Maybe that is not the one God has chosen for you...

Maybe God has prepared some one better for you... "

I take this advice..

I trust this advice..

I will leave my relationship with girls unto god..

I will wait for the one that God has chosen for me..

Enjoy Life

Well people.. It's a new day...

A new chance..

A new thing...

(ARGH! Forgot do Bio project!)

What ever.. do it later...

Well... In life... some thing happens unfairly...

But dun let that ruin your day...

(I'm telling My self That...)

There are always obstacles in life... Just over come them and it's solved..

hahaha...

Enjoy life as my friend YJ say... As much as you can... you will never know...

Death might come early...

(That sounded dark...)

But it's true anyway... haha

(By the way, check out this song people : "Hey Now" by FM Static .)

All Y's!

Every girl me and Yuan Jia have a crush or as you say "fall in love"

Last name sure is Y...

For Example :

Mei Yee..

Y...

Weng Yee...

Y...

Ee Yen..

Y...

Suet Yiang..

Y....

4 Y's d lor! OMG... hahaha

We some how have a thing for girls that ends with Y la... hahahaha...

( It's actually kinda creepy... ) xD

Mood swing

Lately I have been having these sudden mood swings..

I can have fun and laugh for one minute and the next...

Just plainly lose my cool..

and next..

Cry in misery..

hahaha..

Wierd la...

Well after days and nights of lack of sleep...and stress... and depression...

I'm not surprise if your brain cracks a little...

hahaha...

Losing everything...

It's a sad day today..

I just lost everything I had..

My love and my game..

Evelyn... I have loved you and cared for you... there I said it.. for a long time...

but why can't I be the one... why?!

Instead... (sigh) maybe it's my fault I dunno... Ok FINE! what ever I said I'm sorry.. but what you did was seriously unfair...

I deserved better from what I did.. I cared for you soooo much...

I know you had your time... I waited.. and in the mean time... (sigh) I had to find out about this the hard way...

And now.. I just lost my game... the only sport I am most interested in..

I can't go..

And the 2nd thing I do best is gonna be taken away soon too..

My guitar... (sigh)

I'm losing everything...

Ee Yen if you're reading this.. know this..

I have lost too much... I can't lose you...

Take me as I am..

Cause I was too scared to start...

Now I'm too scared to let you go...

It's Just Not Fair...

Well A new year...

A great way to kick off a year is by having a great time on the first day of school...

Meeting friends and all... Having fun chatting about the holidays...

(Check and done)

Now as the year continues...

Things.. happened...

Let me tell you a story...

"One day, there was this boy called Wally...

He was a really lone some... rough... and arrogant boy...

Nobody liked him... he was just plain...(as young people say) "emo"...

He had tons of friends who had girl friends... so he himself was desperate...

So he had a friend named Ket that helped him find a girl...

This girl name was Eve...

Wally and Eve had been hanging out ever since... for one full year...

When either of them had problem... They always backed each other up..

At one time.. when Eve's mother was sick... Wally actually went over to her house and accompanied her for the whole day from 12 noon till 12 midnight. wel knowing the next day he had to wake up at 5.30 am for a church event..

Because of her Wally had changed from an arrogant and rough person to some one sweet and descent...

Every time there was a new movie out... Wally would bring her out and treat her to drinks..

Bought her ice-skating..

"A promise I make to her... is a promise I keep..." said by Wally...

(All this happened in the year 2009)

Then before the year ended... Wally confessed to her saying he really likes her... and hope to take thier relationship to another step by officially being BF & GF....

Eve told him a story...

And due to that story (Which I shall Not Tell)..

Eve was not ready...

And so Wally agreed to wait..

And so new years eve passed... school started about a week..

Then as Wally and his family went out... one day..

The mother and sister of Wally told him this : " Wally, we are very sorry to tell you... but we saw Eve with another guy... Yesterday in the shopping... waist to waist... "

The mother and the sister well knows Wally likes Eve...

The instant Wally heard that...

his heart felt as if the world has just gone cold...

He had been so nice to her... did everything he could for her... But yet... (sigh)

Every minute and moment he spent with Eve came flashing in his mind..

Tears stream down his eyes...

He felt like he could just run to a guy and hit him...

And so... Wally went home form the shopping mall with his family in despair...

Depress... and sad not knowing what to do..."

Now people... do you think what the girl did was fair to Wally?

And what should the girl do to cheer Wally up?

Leave your answers and comments on the chat box...

Thank you.