Hurm

Let's see... what to say what to say... wait I got it..! =D

Monkey + Bananas = ???

The answer is ..... Drum roll please...

(DRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRUM!)

A MONKEY EATING A BANANA! LAME WEI!

I'm getting less and less creative day by day wei... What the hell... Use to write all kind of shit things and play all kinds of stuff.. now it's like *-*-*-*-* Blank..* ARGH!

Really Long

WOW! It's been so long since I blogged! Ok guyz only posted to say that! ^^ XD hahahaha no la... Erm... Really don't know what to say.. just do a quick update... I'm now no longer in SMKBS.. (SMK Bandar Sunway ) I'm now in Chempaka home school USJ 11... met a B-E-A-UTIFUL girl... Never knew we'd be together... She's awesome... perfect... (Tell you what.. I'l l leave another day to talk about her.. ) Erm... and don't ask for her name cause I won't tell! XD Erm... I miss Sunway and me Sunwayrians... I also miss Rezza and the gang... Rasyid & Ariel and the gang... yea... OH! and Congratz to all PMR-ians! It's over now shut up and get a job! XD And to SPM-arians.. Too bad guys.. still got quite a few more steps to take.. ^^ Anyways... all the best SPM people! I will try to remember to update my blog more often... mean time CIAO PEEPS! ^^

Drama Day

Gosh..... I miss Sunway... Well.. anyway... today was Drama competition day... at PTPL Shah Alam and Prize giving at MSU (Chorus Speaking Competition is held) I was actually taking in both the Drama and the Chorus Speaking.. But mom's like "You attend too much activities.. how to study ???" Cause at during the practice time for that I had my MSSD basketball games... so yea... But I secretly joined for a while more then told teacher I quit... She wouldn't let me.. cause no one could replace me... then I intro her to a few guys and she agreed... (Woo hoo~!) Then I went on to fully focus on Drama only... Our Drama in entitled 'Whose to be blamed' and in my mind I was like ' ME ME ME! ' Haha...

Our Drama tells about a guy named Adam(Me) who goes and screw up his life by having sex before marriage with a girl named Sophya (Aieman [2010 Ketua Pengawas for SMKBS Also current holder of Best Actor] )The first scene begans at an Old Folks Home where Adam (On a wheelchair) tells his friends Maria(Maryam) and John (Harinaath) the story of his life in a flashback... then the flashback goes to the house of Adam's mom (Yati)... The parents of Sophya who are Dato Johan (Rezza B.) and Datin Rina (Fajrina) barges into the house and starts questioning about Adam and they argued about getting an abortion and finally coming to an agreement that Adam and Sophya is to be married.. and so they were and had a daughter named Samantha (Nadia) but to make things easier.. we'll just call her Sam... So then the father(Adam) is like all angry and regret and full with negative emotions... and he poured anger instead of love blah blah blah... Without knowing that the wife (Sophya) actually has cancer... (In some part near the brain [Mentioned in old script but not in new script]) The following scene (3rd Scene) was about Sophya with the baby... Adam comes home all frustrated and asks 'WHERE IS MY DINNER' in a loud angry voice and says 'I mean... I've been working the whole day.. YOU stay at home the whole day and you don't even prepare me a meal ???" then Sophya says "I'm sorry Adam... I was busy with the baby... she was crying the whole day... why didn't you bring home some foo.." Adam rudely interrupts and say "Do I look like I have the time????"

Then Sophya will say "Fine I'll go cook now..." then Adam says "There's no need for that.. I'm going out anyway.. " Rushes off and Sophya tries to pull him back and say "Adam wait! Don't go.." But Adam shrugs her off violently.. and leaves...

Fourth scenes began as Sophya comes in older and sick (Older as in 16 years later since we last saw her in the 3rd scene) So Sam grew up to be hot and all.. then she was 17 years old and just got her SPM results and she got straight A's (Big whoop!)[Idiots of course it is! Tee hee~!] then comes back and tell mom about it... (Mom hugged and congratulate and say "I'm so proud of you" ) the mom was like coughing and terribly sick and then Sam says "Why don't you go and rest mom I'll help do the work and prepare lunch for dad" and Sophya says "Thank you my dear.. you are such a good daughter" then mom leaves and daughter sweeps... and prepares lunch... in about 5 mins then Dad (Adam [Me]) comes home angrier and more frustrated than usual and throws down bag and in a way exclaim "Gawd! I'm so sick of this job "and kicks the bag too... then glance at daughter then turn around and start scolding her "You useless daughter! You are such a lazy bone!" and the daughter ignores him and says "Dad I got my result for SPM" and Adam says "You got your results... Hmph! I bet you even FAILED this time!" Sam says "Dad, why don't you list..." Interrupts and say "I don't wanna hear... (Goes to table) Where's my lunch?!" Sam says "Mom is sick...Your food is on the stove.." Adam says "That lazy women! She's always sick!" Sam says"Dad why don't you go take a look at her.." Interrupts and shouts "Shut up!" (Ok this part is the longest line in my script so it's driving me up the wall but I eventually managed... ^^) "She's always sick! That's always her excuse! AND YOU! You're just like her.. Babbling all the time.. Sitting at home doing nothing! Sucking all my money just like a parasite! You're just a child out of wedlock! That's what you are! Look at me... Look at me!!! I had a bright future.. now I'm nothing but an insignificant employee! ALL-BE-CAUSE-OF-YOU!" Sam cries and says " How could you say that.." Adam says "How I wish you were never even born!" Sam cries harder and says "Fine! If you hate me so much I'll go if this pleases you.." Adam says" By all means.. go.. GO! " Sam leaves to her room to pack and Sophya comes in saying "Whats all this commotion about ? Sam ? Adam... What did yo.." Adam interrupts and says "You stay of this!" Sophya exclaims "What did you tell her ??" Sam walks out with a luggage bag Sophya runs to her and pulls her back "Sam where are you going????" Sam says "Mom.. I love you mom... but I don't wanna be a burden anymore.."(I think that's it... forgot her script d ) And Sam leaves... Sophya ran to Adam and shouted "ADAM! WHAT HAVE YOU DONE!" Pulls Adam to face her but Adam slaps her (Wha-pa!) (10 out of 10!) and shouts "Stay aways from me" Turns around and make an arrogant look... Sophya stands up weakly and say "How could you do that Adam! She took care of you! She wanted to tell you she got straight A's for her SPM! " Adam faces her in shock and says "Straight A's ?" And starts shaking his head as Sophya says "She took care of you! She LOVED YOU ADAM!" Adam shakes head and screams "Enough! Enough! and runs away" While Sophya cries for him once more "Adam! Don't go! Don't leave me alone! ADAM! " And then Sophya does her monologue... saying stuff like "I failed to see his true colours.. is this a punishment for the sin that I've done..."(Blah blah blah.. sorry but I don't remember her script... all I know is she is fully regretting and there is a background emotional music and that she eventually says something about her about to die... ) then she leaves the stage crying... (I actually felt touched about this... the mother was left alone to die... Damn! That is some serious emotional shit..)

Then the final scene... We are back at the old folks home.. flashback ended... Maria says "Hm... that's too bad.. have you ever tried apologizing to her ?" Adam (Old Adam) says" Apologize to her? Huh! I never even had to guts to bring myself to look for her... and my dear wife Sophya.." Put head in hands and start crying a little bit.. John then says "I think it's time for you to look for her.." Adam then says "Maybe you're right..(My turn for a short monologue) Sorry was a very hard word to utter... I was so egoistic and a male chauvinist... I should have showered them with love... but NO.. I only poured my anger and hatred.. (Sigh..) I just hope someday I can see her again (Referring to Sam) but for now... I need to be alone.." Then Maria says "Ok take all the time.. I guess we understand..." and walks to the other side of the stage with John and then John's son, Joe (Syafiq) comes and visit him... coincidently or by fate... Sam was married to Joe... Sam suddenly saw her father sitting on a wheelchair... and seem to have fallen asleep.. but as she goes over and try to wake him up... he doesn't seem alive.. John checked Adam's pulse and confirms that he is dead... and then Maria say "When you're here in front of him.. his already gone..." and cries at Adam's lap... Nadia crying badly calls for her father and stands up beginning her own small monologue saying "Dad.. why did you leave me... I always knew in my heart that I would find you someday... but not like this... (Blah blah blah.. once more I didn't memorize her script so that's the part of her monologue that I remember.. she also said something about her becoming a well known lawyer but now she is an orphan.... something like that... anyway moving on...) Oh dad... why did you go without saying goodbye??? Why dad WHY?!" Cries on lap and freezes... did I mention about the narrator... haha... ok the narrator is Kah Tsin... he began the drama with the greetings and stuff and his the one that will say "16 years later..." or "Back at the old folks home" Stuff like that... once more.. never really bothered to memorize his line.. so he will end it with the BIG Q! that goes like this " (something something something.. blah blah blah..) Though Sam became a successful lawyer... she became an orphan..(Blah blah blah..) So who is to blame for all this ? The parents? The teachers ? The society? or the Media ? I leave it to you to decide... thank you" and then the crowd goes wild! Raaaaaaaaaaaah! (no lah... just joking.. xD) So yea.. we did that... but what we did was merely a speck of dust to what the champion school did.. don't wanna elaborate on that.. well.. after typing so much.. finger starting to numb up already so.. till next time.. ciao................................................................................... ^^

I'm Back

Well... it's been long since I last blogged... like Really really...... long.... Don't really miss blogging... Life has been rather emotional I guess... Well... Let's start off with recent events.... I didn't go World Stage.. I'm not unhappy about that... Cause if I did... I wouldn't be going to SLASH! WOO HOO! He was awesome... Like BOOM! Well... I'll upload vids on facebook soon... be sure to check that out... Then before Slash... I had some incidents with girls again... Gosh.. getting kinda fed up of this girl thing... well.. anyway... On a Sunday... I went to this Phantom of the Opera drama musical at Sapura Smart School... filled with SMART students... (Like duh...) And the performance was very good.. in fact.. it was stupendous! XD

The only thing kinda suck-ish was the acting.. Well.. I guess nobody can be perfect... ^^ But there was this girl... her voice was like an angel... and (Blah blah blah... Bet you all don't wanna hear me describe her like a goddess so I'll just say she was Good...) And it felt like 'love at first sight' and all.. but it was once more..'lust'... getting kinda fed up of that too...

Incident number 3 is that I left the beloved school SMK Bandar Sunway.... Guess partially that was my fault... on why I left (Not telling..) Anyways... I left for Home school which is you can say... Fun... ^^ And thanks to "NO FATTENING SCHOOL FOOD" at the home school center.. I lost like 5kg in a week! From what I heard... the basketball team at the home school center was SO good that they had to have try outs to see you are even qualified to enter and train with them... Wakakaka! "Here I come" I say! XD Well.. haven't really had the chance yet... (Try outs happens once a year I guess so that's why I had no chance..) Meantime... I join the football team.. and I must say... football makes me sweat to the core! And because of that I lost another 2 kg! Wakakaka! so... I've gone a few more cm taller in the past few months I guess... from 168 to 172... some what like that... Hair is really going out of whack.. wanna cut it really really short... Well... so far.. that's the new things that happened... And tomorrow there's an And1 competition I guess... Guess I might go... xD Or was it today.. can't remember.. anyways.. Cheerios! Till next time mate (Wonder when that will be... )

Random Love Poem

Random Love Poem by Wilson Ho

Nights and days are formed in the midst of time.

My love for you is long and high but worth the climb.

As I gaze into those beautiful eyes.

I saw a green beauty with sparkling lights.

As I held your hands my wings took flight.

My spirit lost into the dark blue night.

With lust and love filled my heart.

Yet you came and eventually depart.

You left me alone with grief and shame.

For emotions and fear they call came.

With love I loved you to the hearth.

With a dagger I shall use to leave this earth.

What lies within.

Deep inside this heart.

A lost severed soul

Who has gone and depart.

Emo Season - By ~ Someone

Well, it's that time of the year again. When it used to come only twice a year - on Valentine's and Christmas, the 'emo season' has struck again. Once more, the emotional roller coaster has strapped me mercilessly into its seat and blazed off at breakneck speed. Like a kid who's been duped into taking a terror ride in exchange for sweets, I've been sucked into this state of 'emo sickness' yet again. Sigh...

It wasn't supposed to be this way. I was happy, minding my own business when out of a sudden, the tiny thought of someone who used to mean everything to me, invaded the deep recesses of my mind. I guess this person still means a lot to me, even if she isn't supposed to anymore.

Amidst the euphoria of seeing my students finding their 'new love' and some, reuniting with their 'old love' , I fell deep into my own depressive state of still not having found my own. I was fine before this. I didn't need to think about this nor have this feeling pollute my mind but it did. Inevitably, inescapably, it drilled itself into my mind's core and then somehow found a way to worm itself into my heart; leaving me utterly incapacitated.

I hate this feeling of wanting and yet not having; of longing and yet not finding. I guess it's time I face reality - I might never find that special feeling ever again; not with anyone I know right now, not ever.

So goes the famous saying, "It's better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all." Being in my current state, I would tend to disagree. Maybe it's better to not know what it feels like to have someone understand you and accept you wholeheartedly. Maybe it's better to not know what it feels like to sit together with someone and feel like the world is a better place simply 'cause she's there. Maybe it's better to not know what it feels like to find someone who completes you in a way no one has ever done before. Maybe it's better...

I got a taste of what love, in it's simplest and sweetest sense, feels like and I want to hold it in my arms again but I am paralyzed by the fear that I may never find it again...

... and it is the fear that consumes me...

... it is the fear that drowns me and pulls me under...

... to where I may never surface again...

De Vewa Garim Bakh (The Story of the One and United Race )

“A long time ago, where the earth was new and fresh. There was a race, called Garim Bakh which in the old language of the earth means “One Unity” for they were the one and only race that is united no matter what. There were no kings of royalty, all standards were equal. The country that they lived in was called Lorath “The Divine City”. It was named after their god which was named Loraci (Lo-Ra-Ki) which means “Holy Divine Lord”. Their great god blessed them with wisdom and a fruitful land. And in the heavens above, Loraci had created many holy servants which was called Dagai (Da-Gai) “Divine Beings”. They protected and served Loraci.

Loraci was pleased with all he had created and rested and watch as the people grew. And for a time, the earth was peaceful and calm, it was a living paradise.

But know this… every happiness and paradise.. Sooner or later… will come an end…

After a century of peace and harmony, a certain Dagai called Jaru was bored of things. He had a dark heart and wanted to stir things up for his mere entertainment. He used his divine power to turn into the form of a human. He placed himself in the streets. Loraci was not watching this, and did not notice such act was happening. In the streets of Kane which was the only city of the country Lorath, Jaru went around corrupting the minds of two men. The first one was named Kalen, Jaru corrupted his mind by saying :“Why do you work so hard, you should rest and hire men to do your job whereas you can take a break..” and another man named Alran by saying this :“Why must you work for him, is he a greater man than you are ? I see fit that you are stronger and more vigilante, he should obey you, not the other way around.” Then both man started to argue and got angry at each other. From an argument it became a brawl. Jaru was standing at the side watching as the two men faught and he sneered. The crowd around noticed and tried to stop, but it seems only matters got worse. An argument broke among the crowd for some agreed with Kalen and some agreed with Alran. Loraci heard the loud argument and saw the fight that was taking place. A loud voice rang and all movements stopped. All eyes was on the sky. Loraci asked : “ Why is it that you fight, my people ?”

Kalen said : “ A man came over and told me to rest and order Alran to do my job.”

And Alran said : “ The same man came to me and said that I was a stronger and more vigilante man than Kalen and why should I take orders from him.” They then both looked at each other in rage in their eyes. Loraci now saw that it was too late, the hearts of mankind have been corrupted. Rage and anger and hatred was formed in their hearts. Loraci was sad, he said in rage : “ Where is this man who said this !”

The two men pointed at Jaru. Jaru was afraid and therefore use his divine powers to turn into a scaly green creature that slithered silently on the ground. The lord Lorachi said : “ Do not hide Jaru, for I know it is you. I see all. Therefore, from now on you will be cursed and you will remain in this form as a monster you will be. I gave you the power of a Divine Being but you misused the power that I have given and corrupted the mind of my people. You are cursed to slither on the ground forever. Eating and facing dirt, this will also be a punishment to your generations. Jaru, I hereby dismiss you of your divine power and from my presence. Be gone !”

Jaru cried in fear and asked the lord to forgive him, he tried to change back to a humanoid form. But as he does so, he changes back into the creature. Lorachi then gave the creature a name : “ From now on, you will not be called Jaru but Serpent which means “Deceiver” you will be punished and all of mankind will hate and disgust you for you have deceived me and them.”

He then banish Serpent into a deserted and remote part of the world…

The people were confused and afraid for their god was angry and sad. They began to move away. Loraci called them back : “ My people, where are you going ?” And one man from the crowd answered.: “We are confused and afraid my lord for you are sad and in grief.” and Loraci replied : “ Do not be afraid, for I am with you. The heart of mankind has been poisoned and cannot be cured. I will banish you from this land of Kane, the fruitful land. The people on this earth will suffer and struggle to survive in the near future to come. But do not worry for I will be with you. Now go and take your family and property and leave for this is a Holy City.

The people went home and took their property and livestock and family and left the great city with grief and regrets in their hearts. At the gate of the city as the people exited the Holy City. Loraci said : “This will be the last time you will hear my voice. Listen closely, those who still loves me and believes in me turn towards the west and walk towards it and multiply your civilization there. Those that hates me for banishing you from the fruitful land may turn east and walk there and build your civilization. This is my order. I will leave earth to grow itself, and when the time is right I will come back and bring forth the end of this world. Good bye my people.” And the voice faded. Llighting struck the gate and it was sealed with the earth from the ground. There were up to eight hundred thousand man outside the gate not including the women and children. Many walked to the east and many walked to the west and grew. The time will come where Loraci the Divine Lord will come back and bring forth Judgment Day and end this world.

The End”

“Wow daddy! That was a great story.”

“Glad you liked it Mika.”

“I hope one day our lord Loraci will come back and save us all.”

“I too hope so.”

Apology to Dear Readers

The writer for 'Simply Simple' died before he could finish the story, the story will end there. But you can come up with your own ideas and leave your ideas in the comment for this blogger to post.

Thanks for effort. (If you do put in..)

Simple Simple - Part IV

Well, as I entered the pub 'Shellow Creek'

I saw Calv being held up on the collar by a big buff guy.

His left eye seems like it's swollen. He looked at me and managed a smile and I saw 2 missing teeth.

He said :" Hey Willy, can you helped me out for a moment."

The big buff guy had a big tattoos all over his body, his hair was a spiked mohawk. He wore a ripped black shirt with the Word 'Extinction' on the back. He turned to look at me and I noticed his eyes seemed like they were on fire. (Whoah.. ) Next to him were another 2 guys wearing leather jackets with mustaches. First thing came to mind was the word 'Bikers' and the second word was 'Darn'.

The big buff guy said this : " Get'em!" They came charging at me.

( I never had any sort of self defense classes, so I was surprised at what my next move was.)

I bend over and carried him from the shoulder and flipped him over and I was fast enough to hit the next guys at his balls. I mean literally, his balls. He went crashing down and whining in pain. The guy behind me wanted to hit me with a chair I ducked in time and did the same by slamming his balls. (Nobody hits anybody in the head anymore, we just go straight to the part where they fall and cry in pain [ The Testicles ] )

The big guy was hurting Calv and Calv was screaming in pain. I charged the guy with a chair and hit him directly on the head. The chair smashed but he didn't seem in pain. Instead he turned around and was about to hurt me. He was at least 8 to 9 feet tall. Suddenly there was the sound of smashing glass. His eyes rolled and shut and he fell.

Calv was holding a broken bottle of wine. He has cuts and bruises on his face.

He too went spiraling down.

I rushed him to the nearest hospital.

On the way to the hospital he explained to me how he accidently hit a bikers bike down with his car. And threatened to sue him.

It was a wild night for all of us. The doctor said he'd be fine but he had a few broken bones and needs a few stitches.

Apparently it was a wild but short night for me.

Simply Simple (On Hold)

Well people... I'm sorry... that you followed this far to this blog story of " Simply Simple "

But I just lost all my mood...

Depression kicked me in the ass so hard... I lost interest to do anything at all...

So won't I ruin the ending but part 4 will be out... slightly later...

Thanks for your understanding...

Simply Simple - Part III

As I left the restaurant, thoughts of her came flushing in. I didn't let it distract me, but it was hard not to think about her. She is just so beautiful and sweet and nice... (Ahh...)

As I went home and lay on my bed and off the lights a thought came to my mind and before I could think further of it, my phone sms ringtone rang.

I snatch my phone up and had a look. It was Evelyn! It said :

'Hey.. Eve here.. you sleeping yet...? Tomorrow I'll be going out to the movies with a friend at 8 but she can't make it... so wondering if you would like to come ? I mean.. If you have nothing else to do..^^'

In my mind was I was like : 'AWESOME! WOO HOO~! KA-BOOM~!'

I replied : ' Alright... I'll meet you at the Cinemas at 7.30.. Hope to see yea real soon..'

And with that I signed off.

'Wow... barely even know her and already she asks me out to the movies..' I thought.

With thoughts of her in my head, her sweet smile, her green eyes, the red rosy lips, her soft slik smooth hair. (Ahh...) My mind was so filled with her that I started to feel drowsy. And eventually, I fell into a deep sleep.

****

Suddenly ! At 2 AM in the morning my friend Calv called. [Here's a little info on me buddy Calv

Me and Calv have been buddies since teenage. We went to high school together, went to college and now we work in the same office together. He is a real party guy (I mean REALLY a party guy..)] He said :" DUUUDE! Can you like meet me at the 'Shellow Creek' tonight.. I'm feeling awful. " (Shellow Creek was the pub we use to hang out as college buds..)

He said 'awful'. Oh. That's gotta be something bad.

Trust me when you see the word 'awful' coming out of Calv's mouth it's usually more that that or maybe even worse than that.

So I gave my face a wash and I changed and went to the pub to meet my friend Calv. At Freaking 2 IN THE MORNING!

[Part IV will be out on the 11th after 9.00 pm ]

Simply Simple - Part II

As I went back and drove out again. I stood outside the Burger King restaurant, I looked at my watch, it was 12.55pm. ' Where could she be ? ' I thought. I was wearing a simple white T with a quote written on it "No Pain No Gain ! " and a pair of simple black surfing pants with a net hat

(Jason Mraz sort of hat ). I waited for another 5 to 10 minutes then decided to go in and wait for her. I was surprised to see her already sitting down and reading a magazine. ' How the heck she got here so fast ??? ' I thought.

I quietly sat down and looked at her. She was wearing a white dress, no make up and her hair was let down (She looked prettier than before ! ). She seems like she really is engulfed into that magazine.

It was a 'Total Guitar' magazine. (Oh I have a copy of that, to those of you who might not know. Total Guitar is a magazine about latest updates and news on famous hard rockers and same goes for hard rock guitars and guitar accessories. Usually if a girl was caught reading this, it would be weird. Haha...)

I said :"Hi.." in a very calm and cool way. She looked up and was once more surprised. (Haha.. It seems there are a lot of surprises today. ) She quickly hid the book behind her. I laughed softly and added :" Haha.. I know it's weird for most guys but I actually find it kinda cool seeing you read that. I have a copy myself . " She was relieved to hear that. Soon we began to talk and got to know ourselves better.

For what seemed like A few minutes turns out to be a few hours. I looked outside and saw that it was already evening when we finished our long conversation. I had a family dinner on the same day. So I said :" Oh... look at the time. I gotta go, family dinner. Pleasure meeting you Evelyn. Hope we can catch up later. Oh, here's my number. Call me if you need anything . "

She said :"Same to you too, here's mine. " She took my hand out and took her marker pen and wrote her number on it. And mouthed the word 'Call me' and giggled off.

I too left and thought 'Wow... today sure was a great day.' and a big smile was on my face.

Simply Simple - Part I

It was a sunny day at Panama Beach. Sunday that day was.

Darn that day sure was special. (Haha..)

I was on my usual "hang out break "day at the beach, with headphones stuck in my ears and my

I-Pod playing "I'm Your's" by Jason Mraz. Sitting under a tree and enjoying a good book. As I put my book down and took a view at the ocean, it felt like the whole world just took a deep breathe and let it all out. I thought for a while "Wow.. what a sight.."

This isn't the first time I've been to this beach but today, I had a sudden feeling like everything was gonna turn out for the best and life will stay this way, so calm and relaxed.

As I got back to my book, I stretched my legs and as soon as the book covered my face I felt a kick to my leg. I looked up and saw what almost made me drool. It was a beautiful maiden, she wore a black cap with big head phones to her ear and she wore a black "AC/DC" T-Shirt (Ooo.. my favorite band ) and on her shirt was something brown, chocolate maybe. In her hands was her purple I-Pod and a smashed Starbucks cup. (Oh..) I helped her up and said the smartest thing ever :"Er... Hi ?" She was dumbfound, she gave me a shocked look and said "WHAT DO YOU MEAN "HI"! That Starbucks coffee ain't cheap y'know!? " I was still in deep surprise, her eyes were green like the trees, it's as if mother nature was inside of her. Then finally I said: " Oh.. I'm sorry... " She replied : " Damn right you are, you owe me one buddy!"

So we walked to the nearest Strabucks stand which was on the docks. I bought her a cup and a new T-Shirt from the store next door.

She was about to leave I called her back :" Hey.. I didn't get your name and sorry about what happened just now guess my legs were just out of my control. (Haha..) How about burgers at Burger Kings, my treat.. "

She managed a smile, and I saw white pearls gleaming into my eyes. "Sure, Evelyn is the name, remember it's your treat. " I replied :" So, is 1 ok ?" She said :" ok ! ". She then left.

Well, for me. My day at the beach was over.

More and more

The longer I look into it...

The more reasons I find to hurt him...

The more I think of it...

The more reasons I find to make him bleed...

The more I know of it...

The more reasons I find to break his hands off...

But I won't resolve my problems with violence..

oh no no no....

I'm not the uncivilized FREAK or as you say ape man like him....

I have have my ways to crumble a person like ruins without the power of a fist...

Just you wait...

I have my ways...

Sudden Addiction

( This is gonna be a random post )

Lately I have been having these sudden addiction to bands

"My Chemical Romance

AC/DC

Tokio Hotel

Slipknot

Blink 182

Fall Out Boys

Linkin Park"

Don't know why... but the solo's from their songs...

Is BLOODY AWESOME !

Here are a few examples:

Dead! - My Chemical Romance

M&M's - Blink 182.

Give them a listen. ^^

Good news

To all those people who really...

REALLY hates me...

I have good news...

I'm leaving the country...

I might be only... 80%

Going to Singapore to study...

To those that don't want me to go...

I'm sorry... I'll miss you all...

but this choice is for my future sake...

This Song Describes How I feel. (Addicted by Simple Plan)

I heard you're doing OK
But I want you to know
I'm addict
I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy but you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
I'm still a dick
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you

Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker

Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker

Weirdness..

Lately I have been having these sudden feeling.

Like I was doing some thin half way then I just lost all interest in doing anything.

My head starts spinning.

I feel like puking...

Confused.

Lost.

It's so weird.

Am I going mad ?

Crazy ?

Dunno la...

Too confuse to ask myself more question.

"You"

(A song by Wilson Ho "You")

Verse 1:

This song I wrote for you

All the verse I speak the truth.

All I know is that I love you.

Sometimes I feel down in the blues

I look ahead to really know the truth.

Words do not speak what's going through

Pre-Chorus:

For I love you

And only you.

Chorus:

You are the one makes me smile.

You are the one that makes me go wild.

Tired of trying

Enough lying

I really can't take it anymore.

Cause it's only you that I care for.

Verse 2 :

Every time I think of you

Every minute I think I miss you.

This is all and only true.

Come on girl you know why.

That I look into your eyes.

And I'm tired of your lies

(Pre-Chorus)

(Chorus)

Bridge:

I've tried.

To forget you

I've tried

To let go of you

It ain't so easy but I know why.

I just can't forget you.

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

It ain't easy but I think I know why.

I just can't forget you.

You.

You....

Short Poem

Damn!

(sigh)

I'm gonna write a short poem.. of how I feel right now (1.58 A.M 9/02/2010)

"Every little minute I think of you.

Every little minute I miss you.

The times we had.

Is A memory that I'll never forget.

I'm not the Devil either.

I'm just a normal good deed doer.

Every night ain't light.

For if it's for you.

It's worth A fight.

You are the sun and moon.

I just hope to see you real soon.

Living without you is hard.

It's like playing with a dead deck of cards.

Love is never fair.

But I'm willing to dare.

Nothing is impossible

Forgetting you is impossible.

Loving you is easy.

But sometimes it ain't an ecstasy.

I love you to the core.

For my heart will soar.

Eagles Wings will fly.

Without you I will die.

These words are my promise to you.

That I'll always love you and miss you.

I only speak the truth.

And only the truth. "

Once More It's Not Fair.

Let Me put it in a story as I has before.

"There was once a girl, she was driving on the highway back to her hometown.

She saw a little brown cute puppy... and decided to stop and help the puppy...

What she didn't know was the brown puppy already had a home but ran away from it...

Then she held on to the puppy... ad the hours passed.. She and the brown puppy bonded..

Then when she was about to reach her hometown..

She saw a cuter and sweeter white puppy..

It was hard for her to choose..

But she decided to take along the brown puppy..

What she didn't know that white puppy has been starving for 3 days withut shelter and without a home a.. and was hoping for hope..

But she ignored and went on and let the white puppy...

The brown puppy knew the white puppy and in the brown puppy's heart he said : " Haha! She chose me! Not You! Hahahahaha! "

The Brown puppy had a home.. but decided to ran away and look for a new one..

The white puppy has no home all his life... and was hoping for one.. but he was ignored...

The Blame was not to put on the girl going back... but the brown puppy...

He could have done something... but no...

The white puppy eventually died on that day... "

Now ain't that sad...

Songs Describe How I Feel Right Now

You know..

I really dunno what else to say..

I'm lost of words...

My life ain't getting better... but instead it's the opposite..

So I'll use a few songs to describe how I feel right now...

So... Just go listen to..

Addicted - Simple Plan

Worst Day Ever - Simple Plan

I'd Do Anything - Simple Plan

Meet You There - Simple Plan

God Must Hate Me - Simple Plan

Welcome to My Life - Simple Plan

Crazy Love- Michael Buble

Georgia in My Mind- Michael Buble

All Of Me - Michael Buble

Hold On - Michael Buble

You're Nobody Till Somebody Loves You - Michael Buble

At This Moment - Michael Buble

Tonight - FM Static

Man Whatcha Doin - FM Static

Take Me As I Am - FM Static

Hey Now - Fm Static

Definitely Maybe - FM Static

Lie To Me - Daniel Powter

Bad Day - Daniel Powter

Given Up - Linkin Park

Leave Out all The rest - Linkin Park

Shadow Of the Day - Linkin Park

No More Sorrows - Linkin Park

Details In The Fabric - Jason Mraz

I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

Live High - Jason Mraz

Butterfly - Jason Mraz

Apologize - One Republic

Highlighted ones are the ones that expxlains me the most...

Or The tune of music..

Give it A listen...

We have a lot on common

Meeting up with her...

Was awesome..

We had a lot of things in common in fact..

But the fact is she is 17 and I'm 16...

But I look forward to this friendship...

We had a great chat on the phone and on msn...

Then she was apparently with a guy I knew...

The guy was a jerk.. Lied to her... that he had never kissed... etc.

I didn't wanna see her go down the drain (so to speak..)

So I told her... his history... and to always be cautious...

I'm not as you say, Busy body...

I just wanna warn a friend from dropping into a ditch

( Metaphore )

So eventually they broke up...

She is sad..

But I'll hope she'll get better soon...

But sometimes... A sacrifice is needed in order for a perfect life...

Got it memorized ?

Fed up

You know what...

I'm fed up with putting up with this guy..

For 3 years... 3 YEARS!

I have put up with this arrogant,

selfish,

Jerk!

Well fed up of it... So screw it,

A lesson must be thought to him...

He doesn't appreciate what a good friend has to offer...

Simply put the blame some more..

Haiz... Fed up la..

Suan la.. so be it...

A Sudden feeling..

My heart had a sudden heart ache..

I felt sad..

Stressed...

Angry...

All negative emotions start coming..

I just felt like dying on the spot..

And the only word in my mind was "Why?"

It was pissing me off..

I feel like crying but... I cant...

haiz...

I have no reason to be that way that day.. just feel so sad...

My heart ached! It felt heavy... Painful...

My head was spinning... I was confused..

It just felt that way...

Eventually I started crying..

I just cried myself to sleep..

Felt so depress...

(This all happened on the 30/01/10 , 11.30 pm)

4 Arif was and is 1 Arif

Well people.. it's a new year... These Are me mates <-

So was expecting new class apparently I was back where I started...

hahaha..

My form 4 class was also my form 1 class..

Well literally...

I've been with the same people for almost 3 years...

1 Arif

2 Arif

3 Arif...

(surprisingly)

4 ARIF AGAIN! hahahah

From right to left...

(Amirrul Rasyid, CY, Ariel [so rajin...] Nafaul , Me?! ) xD

Leave it unto God

An advice from a friend said...

"It doesn't always have to be unfair...

Maybe that is not the one God has chosen for you...

Maybe God has prepared some one better for you... "

I take this advice..

I trust this advice..

I will leave my relationship with girls unto god..

I will wait for the one that God has chosen for me..

Enjoy Life

Well people.. It's a new day...

A new chance..

A new thing...

(ARGH! Forgot do Bio project!)

What ever.. do it later...

Well... In life... some thing happens unfairly...

But dun let that ruin your day...

(I'm telling My self That...)

There are always obstacles in life... Just over come them and it's solved..

hahaha...

Enjoy life as my friend YJ say... As much as you can... you will never know...

Death might come early...

(That sounded dark...)

But it's true anyway... haha

(By the way, check out this song people : "Hey Now" by FM Static .)

All Y's!

Every girl me and Yuan Jia have a crush or as you say "fall in love"

Last name sure is Y...

For Example :

Mei Yee..

Y...

Weng Yee...

Y...

Ee Yen..

Y...

Suet Yiang..

Y....

4 Y's d lor! OMG... hahaha

We some how have a thing for girls that ends with Y la... hahahaha...

( It's actually kinda creepy... ) xD

Mood swing

Lately I have been having these sudden mood swings..

I can have fun and laugh for one minute and the next...

Just plainly lose my cool..

and next..

Cry in misery..

hahaha..

Wierd la...

Well after days and nights of lack of sleep...and stress... and depression...

I'm not surprise if your brain cracks a little...

hahaha...

Losing everything...

It's a sad day today..

I just lost everything I had..

My love and my game..

Evelyn... I have loved you and cared for you... there I said it.. for a long time...

but why can't I be the one... why?!

Instead... (sigh) maybe it's my fault I dunno... Ok FINE! what ever I said I'm sorry.. but what you did was seriously unfair...

I deserved better from what I did.. I cared for you soooo much...

I know you had your time... I waited.. and in the mean time... (sigh) I had to find out about this the hard way...

And now.. I just lost my game... the only sport I am most interested in..

I can't go..

And the 2nd thing I do best is gonna be taken away soon too..

My guitar... (sigh)

I'm losing everything...

Ee Yen if you're reading this.. know this..

I have lost too much... I can't lose you...

Take me as I am..

Cause I was too scared to start...

Now I'm too scared to let you go...

It's Just Not Fair...

Well A new year...

A great way to kick off a year is by having a great time on the first day of school...

Meeting friends and all... Having fun chatting about the holidays...

(Check and done)

Now as the year continues...

Things.. happened...

Let me tell you a story...

"One day, there was this boy called Wally...

He was a really lone some... rough... and arrogant boy...

Nobody liked him... he was just plain...(as young people say) "emo"...

He had tons of friends who had girl friends... so he himself was desperate...

So he had a friend named Ket that helped him find a girl...

This girl name was Eve...

Wally and Eve had been hanging out ever since... for one full year...

When either of them had problem... They always backed each other up..

At one time.. when Eve's mother was sick... Wally actually went over to her house and accompanied her for the whole day from 12 noon till 12 midnight. wel knowing the next day he had to wake up at 5.30 am for a church event..

Because of her Wally had changed from an arrogant and rough person to some one sweet and descent...

Every time there was a new movie out... Wally would bring her out and treat her to drinks..

Bought her ice-skating..

"A promise I make to her... is a promise I keep..." said by Wally...

(All this happened in the year 2009)

Then before the year ended... Wally confessed to her saying he really likes her... and hope to take thier relationship to another step by officially being BF & GF....

Eve told him a story...

And due to that story (Which I shall Not Tell)..

Eve was not ready...

And so Wally agreed to wait..

And so new years eve passed... school started about a week..

Then as Wally and his family went out... one day..

The mother and sister of Wally told him this : " Wally, we are very sorry to tell you... but we saw Eve with another guy... Yesterday in the shopping... waist to waist... "

The mother and the sister well knows Wally likes Eve...

The instant Wally heard that...

his heart felt as if the world has just gone cold...

He had been so nice to her... did everything he could for her... But yet... (sigh)

Every minute and moment he spent with Eve came flashing in his mind..

Tears stream down his eyes...

He felt like he could just run to a guy and hit him...

And so... Wally went home form the shopping mall with his family in despair...

Depress... and sad not knowing what to do..."

Now people... do you think what the girl did was fair to Wally?

And what should the girl do to cheer Wally up?

Leave your answers and comments on the chat box...

Thank you.